Journal #1

This journal is an exploration of the ‘Not-Self’. This is the part that stops you living as your ‘True Self’, the person you were born to be. Your True Self is your unique authenticity that operates in the world without resistance. It is your life’s purpose. The Not-Self, however, is conditioning put on us from the day we are born, growing up with loved ones and being part of society. This conditioning usually presents itself as fear, doubt, low self-esteem, guilt, expectation, the list goes on. Unfortunately, conditioning is unavoidable as all life forms (animals included) are on this earth to connect with one another. We are here to influence each other’s thought patterns, behaviours and decisions. The more grounded you are in your True Self, the less chance your Not-Self will pop up and say hello and steer you off course.

Each Energy Type in Human Design has a specific Not-Self theme. It is like an internal gage or knowing that you cannot explain. This theme of the Not-Self may manifest as anger (Manifestor), frustration (Generator/Manifesting Generator), bitterness (Projector) and disappointment (Reflector). These themes are feelings you embody when you are not living your design. It is here to help indicate when you are not in flow with life and/or continually meeting resistance. Resistance is a significant signpost to be aware of. It is a sign that you need to take a step back and reassess your approach, actions or words. On the flip-side, that same internal gage or knowing can work in reverse, and that is your Signature. Your Signature is a feeling you feel when you are on the right path. These are feelings of peace (Manifestor), satisfaction (Generator/Manifesting Generators), success (Projector) or surprise (Reflector) and they pop up when there is a sense of ease in life. It means you have surrendered to your inner guidance system and are now awake and aware. Living authentically and in harmony with your True Self. 

Your Not-Self comes from the openness in your chart, your white Chakra centres. These are your more vulnerable spots, where unhealthy behaviours (conscious or unconscious) will reside as a way to protect you from confusion and pain. We must recognise these bad habits and let them go. Our openness is where impassive wisdom lie, that needs to be appreciated and enjoyed. There are valuable lessons to be learned from being open, so embrace this about yourself. So next time you feel resistance towards a decision or activity, ask yourself what the lesson is here, what are you trying to gain or holding to on as a way to prove or convince people about your worth. When you begin to unpack these thought patterns, quite often the answer is there right in front of you. 

My intention for this journal is to help guide you to a place of comfort. I will do this by giving you the tools you need to unpack the Not-Self, which in turn will help you make wiser decisions, free yourself of expectation and give you the space to follow the desires that are energetically correct for you. I know that the Not-Self sounds negative, but I feel it is your first point of call to get you to where we want to be, living in authenticity. Sounds pretty good, right?

Human Design is a complex system and can often overwhelm people, but I have never found a system so spot on. I want to share this wisdom by taking you step by step through the different aspects of Human Design, so it becomes a modality that is relatable and useful. Human Design is available to be experimented with, that was its intention from the very beginning and mine too. I invite you to participate in this experiment with me, and I promise as you learn more by diving deep into your Not-Self, you will begin to see yourself clearly (again). 

If you are new to Human Design, please reach out to me, and I can give you a bit more information on the nitty-gritty and look up what Energy Type you are. I just need your exact birth data (birth date, time and place). Your birth time is crucial, so if you struggle to find it, I can help you get in touch with an Astrologer that will be able to help you. 

I look forward to being on this exploration of self with you :)

Cheers, Billie xx